don't slow me down if i'm going too fast

recently i have become determined to bask in every minute of every day. it's just been this fever i've contracted where there's always something to do, always something to see and i can't just sit around. even when i'm at home relaxing, i'm doodling, watching a film, painting my nails, or being dumb with adrian. when i find myself getting bored i go out and walk around south miami. when i was in high school i rolled my eyes when people said "enjoy it now, you'll never have anything like that ever again" I'm listening now though, not to say i regret my high school experience, not to say i didnt really enjoy high school, because they were (over all) truly happy years, but i was always focused on the next step, of getting out and getting far away and now that i'm 20 i find myself thinking 21 is so close i can't waaaait! but im repressing it, the next few years, while i get my BA, my masters, possibly my phd, all of my 20's are going to be the best years of my life. I'm young I'm beautiful im inlove im studying what i love no one can tell me what to do i make my own choices im responsible for only myself and those choices im exploring places im exploring possibilities im exploring myself, the world runs on my time and im going to be fully awake im going to be alive. 21 can fucking wait, i'll never be 20 again.